It doesn’t come.
The silence is deafening.
These last 5 months we have been in this race together.
We would hand the baton off to each other.
You kept me going.
It would be the middle of the night and you would smile at me.
A surge of energy would fill my body and pure joy would radiate from within me. We were a team, both determined to see it through.
It feels unbearable running without you now.
I can’t. And in this moment I feel myself being carried. By your sister.. By God.
By complete strangers encouraging me to not give up . It has been an honor and privilege being your mommy.. I will love you for eternity."